tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-120424182024-02-28T13:12:57.976+08:00my life.to know more about mealexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-57632608939797973972008-08-19T23:49:00.003+08:002008-08-19T23:54:42.093+08:00BREAKOUTS!<span style="font-family:arial;">totally have out-breaks. omg! what am i gonna do.... thanks to that foundation, that im totally sensitive with!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">since monday morning, i have been helping out for my father. haha. he had injured both of his arms, thus causes him to temporary lose the ability of carrying heavy items. im super tired... every morning waking up at 5. sigh!... great, i've to find a way to defer NS... and maybe going back to secondary school. oh my god... its so lame lahh!.... what am i gonna do??? </span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span><br /><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">it was all a misunderstanding..</span> </em><br /><em></em><br /><em></em><br /><em>WISH LIST...</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>* hope my out-break will recover soon</em><br /><em>* manage to settle my NS's deferment problem</em><br /><em>* hope to continue studying in Private rather than Government School</em><br /><em>* an outing with you (you know who, eh.)</em>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-85110363863349478182008-08-18T02:20:00.003+08:002008-08-18T02:26:22.056+08:00how does it feel?<em><span style="font-family:Arial;">there isn't any reason for someone to love, care & concern. im getting more and more confused each day. trying to search for someone that sees me thru. but, its not getting nearer, instead further. </span></em><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;">P.S I LOVE YOU</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;">* extensions removed</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;">*</span></em> to have more money<br />*to have my loved onealexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-18755280978763064842008-08-05T00:17:00.002+08:002008-08-05T00:32:01.811+08:00GOTTEN IT!Sunday,<br /><br />after getting back home at 4am plus, and managed to get some sleep til 12.45pm. LUXASIA called to inform that they accepted my Application; for the post of Fragrance Associate. LOLs. but i was very sick to work there as they had already told me the requirements needed. haha. on the same day, my sister came back home to study. we had a great time together cause' im doing my invoices and she's reading up. around 3pm, we gotten hungry, and we actually ordered Macs'. oh god, im gonna have a outbreak because i've been burning midnight oil during this couple of days and having alot of unhealthy food. TOTALLY NOT GOOD! in the end, i managed to complete the pricing of the invoices and slept around 4am. oh my goodness, tired!<br /><br /><br />Monday,<br /><br /><br />woke up at 8.30am, cause' im doing opening at Brunch at 10am. damn tired & shagged! as usual, my habit of drinking redbull everytime without fail whenever im going to work. REDBULL GIVES YOU WINGS! haha. but when im about to finish work, my nuer' melissa, called and hope to meet me at Raffles' City. she's smart! she knew im working. Women' 6th Sense. I miss her alot. when we met up, we were so talkative... bitching about a girl whom bitched about my nuer. haha. our 'connection' was 'lost' for quite a while. hmmm.. i reached home around 7pm and i was freaking tired! i watched Tv until i actually fell asleep. LOLs. Shiok kann!!!!! haha.. as im blogging now, im talking on the phone. haha. MULTI-TASKING. hmmm. the person im talking to, MY VIP! haha. OOPS?!<br /><br /><br /><br />PERSONAL MESSAGES!!....<br /><br /><br />* i want to cut/trim my hair....<br />* i want to meet you! i miss you lots!<br />* i miss my mummy! til im unable to sleep.<br />* cant my tenant be a little truthful to her friends?<br />* Work Work Work!!<br />* gotta watch my HORROR MOVIE!alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-9086912824257733192008-08-03T13:16:00.002+08:002008-08-03T13:52:02.788+08:00AWAITING FOR A NEW BEGINNINGFri, went for an interview at Orchard, Tangs with Roy. For a Post, Fragrance Associate. It gives good benefits but the only problem is that, before you even start work, you gonna get yourself in a Full Plain Black Outfit. Not practical for me, because im not able to spend so much money even before i start work. So have already decided, not to work there. It's still alright for me as I am still working at Brunch & Foo House. Haha.. It sounded tiring already. After the interview, Roy & I were fucking warm, due to the colour we were wearing, BLACK! In the end, we decided to go home and get some rest plus change into a better outfit. Haha... Its lame though.<br /><br />As im on my way back home, in the bus, i noticed that there were alot of CHILDREN, whom had finished school around the timing when im back to jurong. SHIT em. crowded bus. ITS OK IF ITS CROWDED, but its not Ok when they stepped on your feet or even knocked on you. Gave me the IRRITATIONS AND FRUSTRATIONS. Kids nowadays are getting much naughtier. hmmm, when will they actually grow up? Once im 'off' the bus, its a great relieve that im on feet back to my home. Don't have to squeeze myself and suffer. hahaha... I felt utterly wrong saying this phrase.<br /><br />Few days ago, i arranged with a couple of friends to meet up for the oncoming-ed weekend. Eg, Esmond & Jaysen or Edgar. But one important meeting, that has changed my life once more. Which i have never do it in my entire life; Going On a Date. haha. I dated someone, a couple of days back before fri, set to meet up on sat. But, we were unable to make it on sat at a last minute call. FRIDAY SHALL WE MEET THEN! It was weird in the first place, but it gotten to a smooth pace after a while. We went to VivoCity to watch a movie, Prom Night. NOT NICE AT ALL. Boring storyline. After the movie, we had a great dinner at Green' House or something. And what about a nice talk after Dinner at the Balcony arena? We had that too. Oh my god, its really a wonderful experience. HAHA.... Im getting weirder! After everything, at appox. 11pm, we have to go already. So being a courtesy fella, i see him off to the train station first before me, myself, go and get my ride back home. LOL!!!!! LOVE IT TOTALLY!<br /><br /><br />Saturday....<br /><br />As my dad has arranged with me to finish up his Invoices, He was very late again. Supposingly, i expect he will fetch me at early afternoon. So when Im done, I would be able to meet up with edgar. Totally Screwed! hmmm. Unexpectedly!!!!!! But its ok, Im getting paid anyway. hahaha! By the time i finished helping him, it was around 4am? so definitely, i would sleep late too. 6-7 am? haha. Oh, almost forgotten, Fer, Qi, Mandy & my Tenant, Chris, whipped out some delicious dishes for me to eat. haha. 1 phrase to fit everything in, FUCKING DELICIOUS! haha....alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-30094631335583317742008-07-30T18:24:00.003+08:002008-07-30T19:42:12.741+08:00MORNING MAD-NESS!OK! since im darn free now, i decided to post in today's journal.... (laughs).<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />lets talk about today's 'event'...<br /><br /><br /><br />slept at early 3 plus and woke up at 9.30. great?!... was damn tired... today was my first day at work in my new workplace at Sepang Bedok. it was cool. very nice place though. haha. worked from 12-3. it was busy but not as busy as in Brunch. now, im damn sleepy and tired. haha. 2 hours spent on journey time! its ok with me! SOBS. my left knee-cap hurts. doesnt even know why. maybe its because i keep standing? or maybe im getting 'old'. oh my!... WILL KEEP MY WORKING SPIRIT UP! work it out! TOTALLY SHAGGED!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />& the moment i've been waiting for... my love story...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i dont know whether do i count it as the 3rd day or the 4th day that im living without you. but something you did today, pissed me off.. way off.... i arranged to meet you after my work but you told me that you dont know whether you wanna go out or not, because you dont feel like?? unfortuately, i seen a message that totally brought my mood down, " hmm today i maybe not going out, thought of going town but Felicia dont want, hahas. " what is this? one moment telling me that you are not feeling good enough to go out and another moment telling me you want to go town with Felicia. what's really going on? at times, i felt so in love. at times, i felt that you're just, SCARY, again. im really confused! for instance, you quarrelled & almost fight with your mother for the White Lily that i bought for you. even though, it had already withered, you still want to keep it as a memory. to be honest, IM REALLY TOUCHED! though the fact, your mother had thrown it down the building. hmmm.<br /><br />last night, in the middle of night, you messaged me. though the fact i was about to sleep but i felt that you need somebody to talk to. so we chatted on the phone. i dont understand why you keep saying Sorry for letting me know about your family issues. but there's something i would want to say, its really ok. believe me. though the fact we are no longer steads but we were once together. dont know why but yesterday before i sleep, i had the urge to call you Baby again. in the message you sent and said "baby, are you gonna stop calling me baby anymore? i really miss you too. my mum had already thrown the lily away. sorry, even if the lily had died, i also want to keep it." but i was already asleep. regretted that i couldnt reply it. in appox. 30 mins later, you dropped me another message, " i will leave to fate whether we can patch or not, alright? i dont wanna force you or what. good night." when i woke up and read it, i felt that i'm being too stubborn. but think about it again, its not that i want it this way. its just that i couldnt do it. its really tough.. i really want to give you a hug again. i really wish i can really call you baby again. but overall, i just couldnt accept what you had done to me. what you had did in the past with your EXs, aint my business at all. you meant alot to me once. but now, im too afraid to even make a step forward again. what if, its a dead end ahead??<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />SO GONE!alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-27517914892171783532008-07-30T00:07:00.004+08:002008-07-30T00:20:10.382+08:00EVERYTHING WAS A BIG MISTAKEtoday at work, everything went wrong. my manager is just there to pick on me whether be it is related to me or not. fuck it totally. i was very pissed! being the SENIOR of casual labourer. and yet it wasnt appreciated! thats so fucked up!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />ALSO TODAY.....<br /><br /><br />i received messages from you. i dont know whether is it meant to be good or not. but its already the 3rd day im living without you. each day seems so tough and miserable. telling myself im not gonna be EMOtional about it anymore but i just couldnt. i cant HATE you because you are someone i LOVE. i really wish to call you baby again. i really wish i can call you or see messages, saying that you miss me. but worst still, i kept hearing 'stories' about you. it just keep haunting me down. COOKIE MONSTER! it just reminds me of you. im utterly hurt to the max. but i couldnt cry. it really hurts. worst still, not able to cry. I WANNA TELL YOU THAT I MISS YOU MUCH! there's alot of things i want to tell you. but can I?alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-34508268772812992842008-07-28T20:19:00.004+08:002008-07-29T00:32:05.443+08:00THE DAYS HAVE GONE!this couple of days, there's alot of things happening which you neither know how to salvage nor control it. but what can i say? practically, NOTHING! i just felt so dumb to believe in something that i shouldnt have. after giving a 3rd chance and yet it wasnt appreciated. i keep questioning myself, why am i still concern about you? what do 'you' have to do with me? but i just want the best for you even we have broken up. like even when we met up to return my stuffs to me, i just wished to give you a hug and request for a patch. but it was my thinkings that kept me away from it. SIGH!... why Promise when you cannot fulfil it?!<br /><br /><br />I LOVE YOU STILL..<br /><br /><br />talked about sat, hmmm. great birthday c'bration though. it proceeded the way we planned! cool...<br />happy birthday Vanessa!alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-91874808039897452592008-07-22T14:39:00.003+08:002008-07-22T14:55:13.601+08:00I MAY NOT HAVE DONE THISbeing able to hear you say " I Love you", really does melts my heart. but the fact is that, is already the second time. ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY. have you actually think before you actually do something? i start to wonder, am i just 'bluffing' myself? i really want to forgive you but its not as easy as i think i could. even if i say : " i dont want to care about you at all!". but can i actually do so? no. because i love you... its because i somehow still believe you are still that Pure White Lily. Roy has been guilty upon since he told me about you and begged me to forgive you. he still cares for your well-being. each time i hear things about you, my heart just shattered into pieces. UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED! but sometimes i know that i cannot lie to myself is that i know I LOVE YOU and I WILL STILL FORGIVE YOU. but how many times more? i didnt go to work because im sick. but its just seems wrong to me. i 'think' even more. i dont want to make a decision that i will regret. but neither do i wish to see you hurting yourself. sigh! why am i still so concern about you?? i couldnt be angry but i felt that pain in me that i couldnt explain.<br /><br /><br />GIVE ME A REASON WHY?alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-27603509231016511562008-07-22T00:34:00.004+08:002008-07-22T01:13:27.751+08:00its been awhile.<em><span style="font-family:Verdana;">i have walked on so many paths. but wherever or when, i 'walk' on, it just seems to me like it has been a dead-end to me again. i have tried so hard to tell myself that things isnt the way i think it is. for instance, i always wonders how is Fer doing? but i just kept on wondering but i just dont dare to ask her "how are you doing?" </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;">next, when you met someone you love, should you really hold it on? i will just ask myself why do you ask yourself that? because i dont dare to take risk after since you joke or (a little meaner), flirt with em... well, i find it really tough to understand what you are thinking at times. i have this thinking nowadays, are you really mine? or am i sharing it with someone else? i know its unfair to think it this way but i just couldnt stop it. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;">today(monday 21st july), i was very quiet when i went to work. maybe its because im not feeling well... it was raining throughout the whole afternoon and the amount of customers were.... little... so as usual, me, as a casual labourer, will definitely be sent home early. haha. not good anyway. 4pm to be precise, just that 4 hrs. sigh!... not working out well. i called up baby, roy and messaged edgar. somehow arranged to meet roy at 4.45pm, ended up waiting for an hour plus. was bored! so i did some window shopping. but when i walked past a florist, i saw white lilies. OMG! hard to find it at certain florist shops. so without any hesitation, i bought one stalk. cost about 6? i know i was crazy at the point of time because i dont know what i wanna do with it. but when i had it on my hand, it reminds me of baby, being the white lily. hahaha! so i messaged baby and tell him that i bought something lame and i wanna give it to him. well, i know im troublesome but i dont have the choice but to re-arrange the point to meet with roy at Redhill station instead. because i have to go over to baby's place to pass it to him. haha. funny! </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;">before arriving at Redhill, as i was in the train, i saw this guy staring blankly at me. maybe because im holding the Lily? haha. who cares? before i reach baby's place, baby called and he actually rushed to meet me. haha. funny though. but i love the surprise and the suspense he gave when i held the Lily at my back. but it wasnt as happy or surprise i thought i will be. it seems distant between us somehow. why? what am i afraid of? was allowing him to St. James to club is bothering me? hmm.. friends told me that it was a wrong move because i might lose him to others. sigh. what am i thinking....!? </span></em>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-47775753300988929282007-10-12T05:04:00.000+08:002007-10-12T05:51:09.103+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:78%;"><span style="font-size:100%;">i yearn for Steaks. Medium Rare to be precise. hoping for one special day to go with my special one, to a Specialised Steak Restuarant. Possible? nahs!! Impossible yeah. haha. im so weird. will i find someone whom love the same thing as i do? hmmm.. wonders? IMAGINATIONS GO WILD! being single doesnt bring me happiness anymore. i used to think that being single is better than getting attached. but now it proves that im wrong. i need someone that care and love me. and that i can do vice versa too. i no longer like nor love anyone. single-sided love will only bring tortures and pains to you. future? no one will know it. my b'day wish doesnt seems to be coming true. what i wished seems to take years. </span></span><br /><br /><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">when i think about the past,</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">when you're gone from my life.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">the past sep till now.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">it seems like im missing you right now.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">but things are no longer the same now.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">given up is worse than possible fake hopes.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">the riches to the poor.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">you seen everything. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">i chose the wrong path then.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">now, there isnt anymore paths to walk on for us.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">i know im missing you again. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">i miss her. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;">sigh!!!!</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;"></span></em><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:78%;"></span>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-62914542210659782812007-10-11T06:48:00.000+08:002007-10-11T06:59:07.293+08:00e walk the walk, e talk the talk<span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">trying to get facts right nowadays. making mistakes during my work. argh.. especially with the CASHIER... i got scolded again and again. newcomers? NOT GOOD. need to learn fast.. i enjoyed working there though. argh... enough talkin about me. lets talk about my baby. im trying to get her butt up and work. but she's on working strike. argh.. have been asking her to work since two weeks ago. i guess its because of her hair la. doubt she would want to get her hair cut. duh!! of course. its precious to us! LOL...... argh.. stay up early in the morning just to use my com and my blog. LOLLOLLOLLOLLOL... im weird. i wanna get to sleep. nasty 'sleepy' ya. </span>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-20828307606053981642007-09-28T00:03:00.000+08:002007-09-28T00:30:45.942+08:00<em><span style="font-family:arial;">argh. i guess im in love with my workplace. its kinda fun though its working. haha. at least you are earning money, you see. these two days of NOT WORKING. makes me feel so bored. haha. unexpectedly, going out to town was a total mistake. get to know others, but indirectly i caused someone into trouble because i spoke out some 'rubbish'. OMG.. im so wrong. argh. just wish to stay out of others' lives. and continue with my own. i wasted some monies on cab and a drink that sucks. a total wastage of 30 plus. seriously, i rather not going out to entertain myself. i should save up the money for needs. i'm starting to feel despair. can i choose to hide? i noticed that i keep making mistakes. what's wrong with myself? i keep making my baby mad. at times, i done some stuffs that causes a disaster. argh!... i seriously didnt want all of these to happen. i think i should just shut myself up again. thus, nothing would happen then. it'll be better this way. overall, im sorry for everything. i'll be the emo, me, again. except during work, then i got no choice. being friendly, only leads to arguement. why that? let's take the taking back of things for instance. i didnt expect that you didnt want the LV back. i thought its part of the 'returning back of stuff'. and again because of this i got scolded. i dont blame you cause its my fault. i didnt check it with you. its part of my negligence. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:78%;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:78%;">i start to feel wrong. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i didn't expect you to avoid me.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">what is the point of telling you.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">is there a need?</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i felt that i shouldnt even care.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">like as if im any thing to you. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">im just a 'someone' in your dictationary.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">do you know you badly hurt me.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">im hating you and yet i love you. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">whats the point, seriously man.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i should get a life.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i should face the fact </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">you're someone hard to get. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">why should i even try? </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i just hope to hear from you. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">is it that tough?</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i really miss you. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i really do. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i love you was it meant to be a mistake??</span></em>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-71221504314554279212007-09-25T22:55:00.000+08:002007-09-25T23:56:48.523+08:00blah blah blah.today the workload was fun. all newcomers had fun at brunch. where we had our 'lesson' on Menu. wahahahaha. somehow miss working there. im so weird!....<br /><br /><em><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:78%;">i really miss you. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">hope to see you soon. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">when you somehow rejected me.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">it hurts a little though. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">but after a little while,</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">im fine. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i hope we could be together one day.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i dont mind to wait. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">but im afraid i couldnt wait.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i really love you.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">it hurts when you dont reply.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i just hope i can say 'I LOVE YOU' to you.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">please.. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">how am i suppose to do so?</span></em>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-54835402664312576552007-09-23T16:28:00.000+08:002007-09-23T17:00:04.594+08:00the brunch life.omg. working for 3days in a roll. fucking exhausted. practically standing up for hours. currently knee caps need some recuperation. haha. luckily having my off for this few days. til thurs i guess. haha....<br /><br />fri.<br /><br />went to work at 10am. and ended at 11.30pm. it was fun man. i got transferred from banquet to the poolside cafe. got to know so many new colleagues man.. comparing banquet and brunch cafe. i rather choose the brunch. haha...<br /><br />went clubbing with baby. finally can treat my baby drink le. we bought tequilla shots and vodka ribenna? (i dont know how to spell it correctly) haha... whatever!! i was fucking drunk la. maybe due to the exhaustion that caused me to get drunk that easily. bullshits.!! practically, i can only remember bits and pieces of what happened that day. haha. and i got back at 4am..<br /><br />Sat.<br /><br />woke up at 10am. fuck! i was suffering from hangover. gonna drag my feet to the toilet. YAWNS!... lazy.. then went to work le. but ended work early. at 9.30.. haha.. but went to the smoking area after that. have a long chat with my colleague talking about homosexuals. and we had fun talking about it. LAME!....<br /><br />then called baby to date her out to clubbing. but she was pretty confused until she heard that terry had some 'troubles' thingy. whatever la!... haha.. then baby cabbed down to maxwell. and i was pretty concerned about baby's boredom, so i cabbed down too. haha.. weird. but we couldnt enter play because we passed the time limit. fuck it's at 11. and no one tell us about it. pathetically, we sat at maxwell market for hours till Play close. some idiots banned terry from entering Play. omg. seriously that idiot need to get a plastic surgery job. he looks so... YUCKS! dont even wanna think about it.<br /><br />after Play closure. that WeiXXe damn fucked up. trying to create troubles for himself. and what the fuck is wrong with him. he changed his words. smart of him.. NOT!!! we were damn fucking pissed up!. but whatever he do, we never link to us again. that'll be a relieve to my baby too. haha.<br /><br />after that, we went to cineleisure for our 'breakfast'. at "Xin Wang Cafe". i ordered curry rice and the egg&ham sandwich for baby and me. but the standard of their food dropped. digusted by it. we complain to the management and they compensate us with mango puddings. again it sucks! haha. but ya, damn not interested in eating. so we ask for the bill to get out that place asap.<br /><br />we slacked til around 6.30 am.... jumping here and there... kissing here and there... and terry doing his MV. haha.<br /><br />the closure of the post for now. will be... im back home at 7am.. haha.alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-64007268874454952982007-09-16T10:56:00.000+08:002007-09-16T11:10:07.717+08:00why is it so.too many things took place.<br /><br />fri went to meet my counsellor. we've talked about everything that happened which involved with my driving case. well, it totally striked me alot. from him, i got to know that T.P decided in charging me. with my confirm jail-term. i didnt tell anyone that it'll be finalize soon. simply i couldnt say much. what had happened had already been a done case. nothing to elaborate further neither a solution out. either i pay the fine or accept the jail term. though its only 15days. but it sucks.<br /><br />wanting to meet baby to go town. but ended up she's very tired. i do not wish to force her out and ended up an arguement especially when someone is tired. tempermental get it. so i promised her i'll be back by 11. eventually things didnt go the way i planned. everything cropped up which caused a terrible mistake between us. Im really sorry. i really dont know what to explain anymore. that night i made a last min decision to go play. it should be fun but in fact it wasnt. i wanted baby to go. and i totally want her to be there. disappointly i couldnt get her. and then... the massive destruct had happened. im totally shagged. i was a total 'broken-hearted' fella. no mood to club neither. everything sucks. i just wish to apologise to her. and tell her that i never mean to do it. sigh.<br /><br />IM VERY SORRY..alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-65061599323314055732007-09-14T00:10:00.000+08:002007-09-14T00:20:19.748+08:00MAGGIE MEE NIGHTMARESimagine maggie mees meals for weeks.<br />im seriously sick of it..<br />my brother enjoys macs..<br />and pity me.<br />only have the instant noodles.<br />suffering from gastric pain...<br />might be the noodles that hurt it.<br />and definitely im gonna suffer from indigestion.<br />im fretting over jobs.<br />how i wish im rich...<br />wahahaha.<br />then i dont have to work at all.<br />its definitely impossible....<br /><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:78%;">im missing you.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">have been thinking over it.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">what am i to you?</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">will you know it?</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">doubt so huh.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">whats love or like?</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">is it worth it?</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">i just wish that things can be reversed.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">wish to be back 5 years.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">then i'll get things right.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:78%;">yes!</span></em>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-74125972149143982822007-09-13T06:15:00.001+08:002007-09-13T06:36:14.314+08:00a job im confused about.Yesterday(wed) went to Pan Pacific to get my interview done.<br />the pay was pretty attractive as it was 6/hr.<br />but the requirement is that i gotta cut my hair and get my hair dyed.<br />banquet requirements man.??<br />i dont feel like cutting nor dye my hair.<br />but i need money.<br />moreover i was recommended by my aunt whom work there.<br />babyFER & sisQI said its not worth it at all.<br />just for a job that i might not be working long..<br />sacrifice my beloved hair and colour..?<br />IT'S STUPID!!<br />but as a guy, there isnt any job available for me.<br />either it needed a cert or im not at the age yet.<br />im confused!...<br /><br /><em><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:78%;">i like someone who doesnt even know.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i dont know whether there is any chance for us or not.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">but i cant be bothered. yeah</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">liking you might be a mistake.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">[YOU] i know you are someone great.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">but i dont know whether in future will there be any chances.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">being friends, i admire you.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">being good friends, i love you.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">but not being stead.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">i dont wish to lie.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">being concern about you, </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">doesnt mean im able to like you.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;">IM SORRY..</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:78%;"></span></em>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-1638240562210715702007-09-12T07:06:00.000+08:002007-09-12T07:11:13.201+08:00I GOTTA GO MY WAY<span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I gotta say what's in my mind</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Something about us</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Doesn't seem right these days</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Life keeps getting in the way</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Whenever we try, </span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">somehow the plan</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Is always rearranged</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">It's so hard to say</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">But I've gotta do what's best for me</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">You'll be ok... </span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I've go to move on and be who I am</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I just don't belong here</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I hope you understand</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">We might find our place in this</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">World somedayBut at least for now</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I gotta go my own away</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Don't wanna leave it all behind</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">But I get my hopes up</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">And I watch them fall everytime</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Another colour turns to grey</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">And it's just too hard to watch it all</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Slowly fade away</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I'm leaving today 'cause </span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I'veGotta do what's best for me</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">You'll be ok... </span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I've got to move on and be who I am</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I just don't belong here</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I hope you understand</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">We might find our place in this</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">World somedayBut at least for now</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I gotta go my own away</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">What about us?</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">What about everything we've been through?</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">What about trust?</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">you know I never wanted to hurt you</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">and what about me?</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">What am I supposed to do?</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I gotta leave but I'll miss you</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I'll miss you</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">soI've got to move on and be who I am</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Why do you have to go?</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I just don't belong hereI hope you understand</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]I'm trying to understand</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">We might find our place in thisworld someday</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">but at least for now</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]I want you to stay</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I wanna go my own wayI've got to move on and be who I am</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">What about us?</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I just don't belong hereI hope you understand</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Troy]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I'm trying to understand</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">[Gabriella]</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">We might find our place in this world someday</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">but at least for now</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I gotta go my own away</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I gotta go my own away</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">I gotta go my own away</span>alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-17083812770304303402007-09-12T06:44:00.000+08:002007-09-12T06:46:39.475+08:00i finally so called 'finish' up the blog.<br />it seems lame does it?<br />alrights lets get to the point.<br />it took such a long time since i last blog..<br />arghs.. who cares..alexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12042418.post-1160985192899874242006-10-16T15:33:00.000+08:002006-10-16T15:53:12.913+08:00donut night..15 oct.<br /><br />we went out around 2.30 am.wanting to go for a drink.<br />but we felt bored so we decided not drink.<br />haha<br />so we called lay hoon out to ask whether anyone have a license<br />and she said there is...<br />haha<br />so we go to his house and get him.<br />at that moment we are wondering whether we sld go to JLN BAHAR<br />but in the end we did.<br />there's a long road some sort for plane landing and stuff.<br />and i sped of at 234 km/h.<br />is so cool.<br />V6 engine kinda rock man<br />producing 222hp at 6000 rpm<br />haha.<br />the feeling was great.<br />then we went and 'spin' for a round and almost crash the curb.<br />haha.<br />later that,we went back to look for them.<br />and lay hoon wanted to try...haha<br />so like i will reject the request.<br />so i brought her with fer there.<br />doing donuts for appox. 4 rounds.<br />and they said the tires smells really bad.<br />imagine ll rubber smell nice???<br />haha<br />and when we were about to leave<br />i,layhoon and her fren were in the car with me<br />so go for the last few rounds<br />appox counted rounds are like 10.<br />lay hoon couldnt take it...haha<br />and when i stop, the amount of smoke coming from the tires are like<br />omg.so much lo.<br />then fer couldnt take that smell<br />and wanting to puke.<br />but she dint<br />so we all get into the car and left the place<br />to fetch her friends back.<br />and layhoon gave fer a smack at her back and she vomited in the car<br />i was like OMG SHE VOMITED...WHAT HAPPEN....<br />so we sent all of them back and we got into my carpark<br />and wash the car.......<br />and it smells really bad<br />so i use body spray to spray over<br />haha...<br />it's so funny lo.<br />luckily the car doesnt belong to my dad anymore<br />if not im so dead......hahaalexhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09984059168453934880noreply@blogger.com0