argh. i guess im in love with my workplace. its kinda fun though its working. haha. at least you are earning money, you see. these two days of NOT WORKING. makes me feel so bored. haha. unexpectedly, going out to town was a total mistake. get to know others, but indirectly i caused someone into trouble because i spoke out some 'rubbish'. OMG.. im so wrong. argh. just wish to stay out of others' lives. and continue with my own. i wasted some monies on cab and a drink that sucks. a total wastage of 30 plus. seriously, i rather not going out to entertain myself. i should save up the money for needs. i'm starting to feel despair. can i choose to hide? i noticed that i keep making mistakes. what's wrong with myself? i keep making my baby mad. at times, i done some stuffs that causes a disaster. argh!... i seriously didnt want all of these to happen. i think i should just shut myself up again. thus, nothing would happen then. it'll be better this way. overall, im sorry for everything. i'll be the emo, me, again. except during work, then i got no choice. being friendly, only leads to arguement. why that? let's take the taking back of things for instance. i didnt expect that you didnt want the LV back. i thought its part of the 'returning back of stuff'. and again because of this i got scolded. i dont blame you cause its my fault. i didnt check it with you. its part of my negligence.

i start to feel wrong.
i didn't expect you to avoid me.
what is the point of telling you.
is there a need?
i felt that i shouldnt even care.
like as if im any thing to you.
im just a 'someone' in your dictationary.
do you know you badly hurt me.
im hating you and yet i love you.
whats the point, seriously man.
i should get a life.
i should face the fact
you're someone hard to get.
why should i even try?
i just hope to hear from you.
is it that tough?
i really miss you.
i really do.
i love you was it meant to be a mistake??